Sometimes questions just kept pouring and there I found myself to answer a few, but the others, they are giving me short-lived headaches. If I keep reminiscing the past, I would just end up blaming myself for all the mess I made.  Single parent, alone, away from my family, work pressures, and most of all the past relationships I went through were not just an ordinary letting go. It is deeper in a sense that marriage was my goal, but then it did not happen.  Now I try to pick my broken pieces yet allowed my heart to love again hoping that this time, THIS TIME, I am fully awake and aware of my actions and feelings.  A new relationship is a new chapter where love and respect is much given priority, where understanding and compassion becomes deeper, where acceptance is never a barrier but a desire to last a relationship. You see I am the type of person who’s afraid to get hurt and I really get furious if I do. I sometimes lose control of my boundary between loving and hurting. Most of the time, I get out of the relationship where I am into because of the fact that I don’t want to get hurt. I know part of loving is hurting but when until when?  Why do we hurt the ones we love? Why aren’t we aware that sometimes we become insensitive to feel it?

To be continued…..

by : Ms.L